I had an idea in my head of what i wanted to get out of doing the underwater photography, but was also aware that it might not be possible so i went with an open mind and am really pleased with the visuals i got from it.

I choose to do underwater photography cause i swim alot and its place where i get all my thoughts together and feel free and clearer about things that may be happening.

I wanted to explore the idea of being free and not restricted but as its underwater this isnt really possible. I liked the idea of the two things competing against each other. As before with being restricted within yourself. I wanted to explore the idea of being restricted and then set free. Trust and betrayal.

What am i going to do? Will it work? will it be understood? Who will be watching? who will be there? Can i do it on my own? Who will help me? Will it be protrayed correctly? Emotions and thoughts, vulnerable and exposed. Feeling and senses to certain situations. Being free yet restricted. Movement and fluidity against lack of oxygen. Freedom against confinment. Calm against rage and power. Self confidence or lack of. Nervous, scared. Fighting against yourself. Self worth and contentment. Can i do this? Setting yourself freefrom restricting thoughts. Past experiences. Having to be set free collaboration. Quiet, respectful, anger , hurt and pain. Distortion, shapes and images created. Confined to a certain space, restricted movement. Resurface, unmasking yourself to be jugded. Will i be misunderstood?

The idea of going swimming to some people is a scary thought. The idea of feeling exposed and vulnerable in a public place is also something that i wanted to explore and be concisous of. The way water can be so peaceful and calm and then turn into something so powerful and destructive.

I wanted to try and capture the freedom of movement and shapes created by my body and the props i used.               

When in the water is was extremely difficult to stay under the water cause the pressure just kept bring you back to the top. So it felt like as soon as i got to the viewing sqaure i was back up top again. The muffled noises and coated vision.

The area where the viewing square is, was really interesting as well.

After not being able to source a tank big enough i decided to make my own but using perspex. Obviously this isn’t strong enough to hold water but i liked the idea of it being so confined and restricted. I found the process really difficult, to put yourself in such a vulnerable position to be viewed and judged in such a way. But i think the images capture this quite well.

As the box was really small my body became quite distorted by the position it was in. i would quite like to explore this when it comes to the underwater photography.

While i was waiting to hear back from the commonwealth pool i decided to continue exploring the idea of being in a tank and what i would actually do when i got to the pool. I found it really difficult to source a human size tank. A friend managed to get me a smaller tank which i used to film me writing on one side with my face on the another while filling up with water as though i was drowning in my own thoughts. Will up load the video soon.

Continuing looking at trust/betrayal and vulnerability in my work. I want to explore the feeling of being in water and underwater.

This reminded me of a show on during the edinburgh festival- Fuerzabruta.

The Way Things Go.

I have decided to continue on with the themes of trust, betrayal and vulnerability in this project. I want to try and convey the different sensations and emotions that you can feel in certain situations. I started looking at the words that arose when i thought of vulnerability:-

fragile, trapped, suffering, ignored, hurt, emotional pain, weak, exposed etc.

I then started thinking of the opposite of these words and thought about relying on one thing to make the other work. Like you cant really be betrayed if you never had trust. This continues on from the idea of having to collaborate with someone to create an art works.